Trust and Obedience part 2

A ROUTE CHANGE!!

If you haven’t read my first “Trust and Obedience” blog, I suggest reading it first so you will better understand this one!

Waking up to an email from my advisor Drew saying that my world race route has been cancelled was not how I expected to start my morning but I am really glad it did. My first blog of “Trust and Obedience” talked about how much I had been struggling on my old route. How my heart has been longing to go back to Guatemala. How my personal desires were trying to take my vision off of the Lord and what he has in store for me. I wrote “you have to be obedient to God and let his word be what you trust.” And that’s the truth. When I wrote that blog I was still really struggling with trusting him and his plan. I knew that it was going to be good but I wasn’t ready to let go of my control. I so deeply wanted that power that I didn’t know how to trust God and let him have the control I had been holding so tightly onto. About two weeks ago I sat down and had a very intentional conversation with Jesus telling him that if this is what he wants for me then I am ready to give up the control and trust that this is where he’s sending me. It was a GOOD thing… I finally felt full contentment. 

Then I got this email and I sat there confused because I finally gave him all of my trust and felt okay where I was for the first time in 6 months. But that was the whole lesson. I needed to let go and let God take the control. He never even planned on sending me to my original countries… he just needed me to grow my trust in him. That’s what the whole World Race is about right??? Trusting God and telling people about him. He needed me to gain that trust and let go of my earthly desires to bless me and fulfill them himself. I originally wrote in my blog “I realized that I needed to be obedient and trust that his plan is something much more detailed and it is written out perfectly for me.” That was true and still is. He had me sit in uncomfortability for 6 months to grow me and change me. His plan is so perfectly written. What’s ironic is that I’m honestly a little bit sad that I am not going to the countries anymore but I know it’s okay because God has me where he wants me. If he wanted to change my route again I would be okay. I’m okay because his plan is so much better. 

I told my mom and she asked me “So if you knew this would be the outcome the whole time would you have just originally picked the new route you’re on?” I didn’t even hesitate to answer no. I needed to grow in my trust with God and he had me do that. I made lifelong friendships with the girls that were on my original team and I wouldn’t have even met some of them if we weren’t put together. I am so thankful for this time of growth and trust, and i’m excited to see how much deeper my trust grows in this process.

I bet you’re wondering what my new route looks like….

My new countries are:

Costa Rica

Guatemala

Thailand

Swaziland

IM GOING BACK TO GUATE!!!!!!! I am so excited and so ready to see how he moves! Less than 6 months away! Trust him guys, I promise you won’t regret it.